I’m happy to report that I am well on my way to finding my happy place. I literally have nothing to complain about or anything specific that is bothering me. I guess that’s partly why I’ve been so quiet lately. I feel like if I continue to give energy to people and situations that make me uncomfortable, I will become engulfed in emotions that I simply no longer want to deal with. It took a minute, but I’ve finally learned to say “okay” and be just that…okay. I’ve stopped talking to a few people, some who might even read this blog and realize that I am specifically speaking to them when I say:
Eventually, you pushed me away and I learned to do the same. I was available to you at your convenience and nothing more. The more I thought about holding on to good memories, the more I realized how few and far between they had become. It was then that I learned to glow without you and glowed up.
Sometimes you just have to say “okay” and be done with it. Give it no more thought or energy, just move the hell on. I’ll continue to move around in silence until my circle feels like it’s where it needs to be. I know I’m growing into a better woman, and I have to be certain that the people around me inspire me to be greater and better, not feel like I have to prove my worth. I already know that.