I find myself picking apart the lyrics to Musiq Soulchild – Halfcrazy. There’s a certain line that reminds me of you. The emotion felt behind the lyrics, strong enough to cause me to pause. I find myself remembering the good times. So good to the point of smiling. I smile so hard trying to hold onto to that memory. But it always escapes my grip. I can never hold on for long. My mind floods with thoughts of the hurt, the betrayal and heartbreak. Yet, I smile even harder. Thankful. Grateful. Appreciative. Thankful that I was able to experience and know what good love felt like before it all crashed and burned. Grateful that I no longer walk in the shoes of blind love. Lost with no direction. No end to a beautiful beginning. Incomplete. Appreciative of who I am today. Of the lessons I managed to learn through it all. Because you not only taught me how to love, but how to recognize when it’s being reciprocated and when it’s time to walk away. I no longer bump into walls of hurt, because as hard as you tried, you did not break me. Today I stand, in love with me.
Thank You, for making me a woman.