11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
This scripture was posted in a comment on my previous post by Karen. It’s amazing how God is always working on you because I was literally just standing outside puffing my electronic cigarette, quietly praying that things that I’m working on work out in my favor. I’m trying to do so many things right now that I’ve literally been worrying myself silly. I haven’t slept much the past few days. And I’m nauseated with fear. 2012 was such a wild year and I’m determined not to allow the past to fester into my future. I’m learning to let go and let god. For me this has never been easy. But every single time I start the “woe is me” talk, God shows up and reminds me to have faith and trust in the Lord. My mom who was recently baptized has blessed me with this reminder nearly every day for the past few months because she knows how much I worry about things. Truth be told, I’m learning so much from her new found religion that it’s starting to make it easier to just pray on things and be patient. I have to admit that I’m really struggling with being patient. I’m a Pisces, I want it all and I want it now.
“It’ll happen because you deserve what you want”, my mother reminds me.
I feel like I’m writing this blog for someone else right now. Much like how that comment was left to inspire and remind me to have faith, I hope this blog eases the tension in some other readers mind. I’m not a very religious person but one thing I do have is faith. And I will trust that God will always be here to protect me and will never let me fail for everything happens for a reason. Even when I don’t have enough faith in myself to make it happen, God has NEVER failed me.