Finally setup my vanity in the other half of my office. I used to sit at my vanity everyday and put on makeup. Moisturize, eyebrows, eyeshadow, mascara, concealer, foundation, finishing spray, lipgloss. I used to dress up my outside but it never matched my inside. I smiled for a selfie, accepted praise for being pretty, and felt ugly the entire time. I listened but I didn’t believe it. I sat here today for 45 minutes staring at palettes and brushes I haven’t touched in months until the sun went down. I couldn’t get past the emptiness to pretend to be pretty today, not even for myself. I miss the old…

If you know me, you know that I have a major affinity for seafood. I eat it several times a week. Over the last few years, lobster has become my favorite. I’m sure this is simply because I don’t have easy access to Dungeness Crab and Tiger Shrimp, but these lobster tails are everywhere here in Georgia. Anyway, here’s a pretty awesome recipe for Fried Lobster Bites. Let me know how you liked it.

Nothing reminds you of just how alone you are, then being single on Valentine’s Day. I remember when I really didn’t care about this day at all. I can almost hear myself lying saying “Ehh, fuck a Valentine’s Day”. It took years for me to realize that the only reason that I actually hated it, was because I never had one. Even when I was in relationships, I can only think of one time that an ex got me a gift for Valentines Day. Every other relationship or situationship that I was in on this day, we were not speaking for whatever reason. It’s almost like they would all purposely…

The fact that I keep losing track of blogging regularly is crazy. I keep coming back, only to leave again. So I won’t promise that this is my return, but there are a lot of new things happening that I am waiting for the universe to finish doing it’s thing before I speak on. So fo now…enjoy the little Nugget. He’ll be 6 months on Saturday.

It’s been almost 3 weeks since Zion O’Shea Nassir Williams decided to grace the world with his presence on July 25th at 8:52am.  It was a long journey, and definitely not an easy one. Which is likely why it’s taken so long for me to gather my thoughts, and sit to write this post…in silence. I was admitted to the hospital the Tuesday of the same week for a schedule induction. Apparently, my age and weight qualified me for an induction, and my doctor was concerned about potential high blood pressure issues.  Seeing as how it had only been a month since the pre-term labor scare, I was more than…

Well, yesterday was certainly an interesting day in this pregnancy. My morning was off to a typical start. Decided to work from home, since I was a tad bit uncomfortable. I figure that’s to be expected at 33 weeks with a 5lb baby. So I made breakfast for myself and Kimoni, got comfortable at my desk and settled in. Lunch time came and I decided to lay down in bed since I wasn’t hungry. I’m laying there playing games on my phone, like the nerd that I am, when my back suddenly started to spaz. UGHH!! I’ve noticed while pregnant, that my back spasms have gotten worse. What makes it…

It’s been quite a while since I made my return and wrote my last entry here. If you’ve been around for a while, you know that I typically shutdown when things get to be too much. After that last disaster, so much unraveled that I literally didn’t know what to do with myself. Not to mention the demonic ex from hell started looking for me again *hard eyeroll* Anyway, not here to talk about that…as you can see…I’m having a baby, it’s a boy!  I want to be like super excited, and technically there is a large part of me that is considering everything I’ve gone thru.  But it’s kind of…