SITE UPDATE: They say “If it ain’t broke, don’t fix it”. So I went back to the layout I love the best. It’s so easy and I love the setup. That doll was freaking people out and she was getting on my nerves being all cute and shit. 😆
I have been sitting here staring at this box for the last 2 hours. I have two things I want to talk about but at the same time I don’t even feel like talking about it. I’ve analyzed it so much in my head that I’m fed up with it all. At this point I feel like it’s too early in the year to be making
enemies. Only one is killing me inside. Cause I feel so disrespected. It’s a level of disrespect I have never felt before. I don’t know what to say, what to do….I’m just hella confused. For the last week I have debated on rather or not I would confront this person and explain why I am so hurt by their actions. Honestly, I thought, if he didn’t mean what he said and did, then he’d call or write. 7 days later, nothing. So I’m left to assume that my hurt and pain is real. And what I think about him now has been true all along. I hate to think I was so blind as to not see this happen. But it’s a huge mystery to me. You know how something happens and you think about it so much that you end up hating the person that mind fucked you in the first place? That’s where I am right now. I never thought I could hate another person more than I hate Nataka. See I can even type his name now instead of referring to him as IT. Which is funny cause I half way like that bastard again. He made my son smile. Wait, back to the subject. I’m throughly blown away. I’m so throwed, I can’t even cry. That’s pretty bad. I’m an angry crier and I can’t muster up a single drop. All I see is red. :angry: I could have never said or did what he did to me. Especially after all the shit he’s talked in regards to his feelings for me. Its true….I got Punk’d!!
Update on man troubles: i couldn’t keep my mouth
shuton the issue so I sent him a long ass message basically telling him how I feel. I wasn’t very nice either. I think i called him an “asshole” more then once. Anyway, he called me tonight. Although I was happy to see he called, I almost didn’t want to answer it. I think I’ve analyzed the situation so much that it doesn’t matter what he says at this point. His attitude didn’t help me any either. He was talking to me like he was phone checking me. Yeah, umm I don’t think so pimp!! NOBODY phone checks me!! That shit totally made me not want to talk to him at all cause I had no intentions on yelling the entire conversation but I did. It seemed like he was calling me to flip the situation around and make it my fault that he was acting the way he was. Sounds pretty typical right? I had no idea until a lil while ago that my friend had called him to tell him how down I was about what he did. Funny how he was apologetic to her, but yelled at me. I’m assuming he was trying to maintain his manhood while speaking to me. I think I’m over it. I might be his friend again but anything more is a wrap. When he disrespected me, I lost a lot of respect for him. Misunderstanding or not, I know what I heard.
*By the way, this story is not about Nataka, the father of my son.*
The other issue I don’t think needs to be addressed anymore. I’ve Uttered about it and that’s all she’s getting from me. I will say this tho…should you choose to remove me from your site, please let me know so I can do the same.
Oooo what’s today? Sunday….umm what comes on T.V. tonight? Uhh…oooo!!! “I Love New York II…The Reunion”. I wonder who’s gonna get their ass beat this time. OMG I totally just had a sexy flash back of Tango standing on stage saying “I want you to do what ya say ya gon do” OMG…he makes my body hot when he says that. I watched it several times just for that one part. :love:
It’s going to be very uncomfortable watching the show tonight. Hell, watching anything for the next few weeks. I finally got rid of all my living room and dining room furniture. Its a new year and I needed new shit. LOL so now there is nothing in my living room besides my computer, desk, T.V. bookshelf and pictures on the wall. Oh yeah and that damn Christmas Tree I keep forgetting to put back in the box. I need to decide if I’m going to IKEA my apartment or go with a more adult approach with the comfy sophisticated look. IKEA sounds fun but their stuff not only has to all be put together but it’s not that
comfy either. What ya’ll think? I need some ideas. Anybody know of any sites that display random home decor?
I’m stuck here at work for another 4 hours…guess I better actually work. :happy: It’s been a very slow day in Kodak land, hope it stays this way.