Saturday Kimoni and I took a trip to the Halloween Super Store to buy him a costume. He had his mind set on a vampire and I was determined to sway him away from that. My child is a goof ball who is constantly laughing and joking. Which means…he sweats. I’m not going to spend the day explaining that his makeup melted and he really shouldn’t look that gross. LOL! So we get to the store and he leaves me. Like he literally took off running and said “Bye Mama”. So I strolled around the store by myself for a while. I already know what I’ma be this year cause I was the same thing last year. I’m recycling my Sexy Honey Bee costume since no one saw me wear it here in the Bay Area cause I was out of town for Halloween last year.
So anyway, I’m walking around and I walk up on the most hideous clown I have ever seen in my fuckin life!! I cried. I got sooooooooo scared…my grown ass was standing there mute and frozen with tears rolling down my face. I know I don’t like clowns. I found this out in 1990 when Stephen King released “IT”. I still have never seen this movie from beginning to end. I can never get past the part where the clown is in the sewer. I even tried to watch it about 4 years ago and I bust out in tears. I don’t do clowns!! I’m bout to cry just writing this…smh.
I was so upset that I hyperventilated and gave Kimoni the $40 for his costume and stood outside while my 6 year old paid for his costume. My fear of clowns has gotten worse over the years cause it never use to be that bad. I was walking around the store in fear saying “Kimoni…please come on…I wanna go…where are you?”. He thought it was funny. Did they really have to have so many clowns? They were in every single corner, hanging on the wall, at the front counter. LOL!! I was ready to fall to the floor and cover my head. I was that close to doing it. But I was trying not to embarrass myself since 2 people saw me crying and were treating me like a child already. SMH I was a mess.
What are you seriously afraid of?
Have you always had this fear?
Do you know an easy way to get rid of the phobia?